Being A Sociopath

So I am apparently one according to my psychiatrist. When she was explaining to me her justification for the diagnosis things started to link together, giving me a sort of closure I guess and naming something I have “suffered” with for many years. Although, I do agree with her diagnosis there are indicators in Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD) that I don’t fit into, which apparently puts me on a different end of the ASPD spectrum. Here I had a closer look at some of the signs:

Signs of antisocial personality disorder

A person with antisocial personality disorder may:

  • exploit, manipulate or violate the rights of others
    • I have never violated the rights of other individuals.
  • lack concern, regret or remorse about other people’s distress
    • I have been guilty of lacking concern for others problems and still do to this day.
  • behave irresponsibly and show disregard for normal social behaviour
    • I could give you lots of examples here.
  • have difficulty sustaining long-term relationships
    • Yep. Although one relationship latest 12 years.
  • be unable to control their anger
    • I don’t have any anger issues.
  • lack guilt, or not learn from their mistakes
    • I don’t lack guilt but I also don’t learn from my mistakes.
  • blame others for problems in their lives
    • Yes I have thought like this for many years.
  • repeatedly break the law
    • Unfortunately yes.

A person with antisocial personality disorder will have a history of conduct disorder during childhood, such as truancy (not going to school), delinquency (for example, committing crimes or substance misuse), and other disruptive and aggressive behaviours.

So I guess I am a sociopath. I just have to now change my mindset if I feel any of the above indicators creeping in.

2020 New Me! New Mindset!

5 thoughts on “Being A Sociopath

  1. If I were you, I’d get a second opinion. The label of antisocial personality is unkind and really up to you to decide. Did you have addiction issues when you broke the law? This is enough to explain the behavior. I distrust a lot of professionals and fire them when they cross the line into abuse. Teddy, we’re talking about morals and such, and you know, everyone has the right to judge for himself. Your life is sacred. Honor yourself accordingly.

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    1. Thanks for the reply. I was considering getting a second opinion as it’s quite a stigmatized disorder to have against your name. I never had any addiction issues when I broke the law. Thanks for your advice.

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  2. I think it’s too early for a diagnosis. A good psychiatrist would be less keen on labelling you, and more keen on why you decided to see them. What is it that’s been preventing you from the living the life you’d like to? Diagnosis from that point view begins with you, rather than from the point of view of what an authoritarian society would prefer from you. I note that you have a history with crime and this is a big problem because even if you’re not unwell before you get into the criminal justice system, being in it will make you unwell. So your best bet is to find a way to distance yourself from that system, from poverty, from homelessness and other extreme stressors (which would cause a saint to have a breakdown and doubt themselves). While no one wants to spend their lives on medication, the right medication can give you a couple of years break to distance yourself from negative stressors, learn to enjoy relaxing, and start to practice healthier habits. Eckhart Tolle and Stoicism helps, if you’re ready to grow in character and spirit.

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  3. When I first read this I was extremely manic and started on a 200 word rant that was filled with expletives and anger and righteous hostility in the direction of doctors who would put that on you.

    What does a label matter? What matters (in my mind) is/are the choices that you are making to be a better person. Who care what a whitecoat says you symptoms say about you. Doctors are in the business of profiting off the unwellness of actual people – that seems sociopathic to me. But that’s getting back into the rant.

    *calm breath*

    Who you are is so much more than any one label could ever define. Work on making better choices and understanding why you made the choices that weren’t better. You’ll find yourself on an ever better path regardless of the labels a cold and calculating society might throw at you.

    I hope for your wellness. Much love and joy and appreciation for your continued sharing in the struggles and stigmas you face as a mentally unwell person in the modern society.

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